I believe Carrie Bradshaw referred to it as the zsa zsa zsu. Some people call it chemistry. Others call it sparks. Call it what you will, I didn’t feel any of it Saturday night.
I was a little nervous when we walked into Forrest Room Five because I really wasn’t sure to expect. We were introduced by a mutual friend and said our hellos. I quickly knew that nothing would come of it. I instantly felt horrible for thinking that and forced myself to keep an open mind. An hour later I knew my initial feelings were right. He was outgoing and very nice but I had no interest at all.
I like the French term for it – je ne sais quoi. English translation: I don't know what. Basically, it’s an attractive quality that’s hard to describe. And it’s that je ne sais quoi that I’m always looking for when I meet someone. It’s that thing I can’t fully describe but I know it when I see it.
It’s not just a physical thing; it’s bigger than that. It’s his personality. It’s his wit. It’s whether or not he gets my random pop culture references. It’s what makes me wonder if he’s looking at me from across a room when my back is turned. It's what makes me fidget with my hands when we talk. It’s the flow of the conversation. It’s both the things we agree on and the things we disagree on. It’s the way I want him to laugh at my jokes. It’s the way we make eye contact. It's the thing that makes me smile a huge smile while we're talking . It’s the way I want our conversation to never end…because it’s so damn rare that I have conversations that I don’t want to end. It’s the chills I get on my neck which spread across my body the first time he whispers something in my ear. It’s what makes me want to share everything; to be totally open and honest. It’s wanting to really get to know him and have him really get to know me. It’s saying goodbye to him for the first time and wondering when I’ll see him again. It's closing my eyes at night and thinking that we could be a real possibility. It’s that thing that makes me call my girlfriends and say, “We have to get together for this story because it’s too good to tell you about over the phone.”
Those things weren’t there Saturday night and that’s ok. Honestly, I would rather be alone than settle for missing any of the above. Once you’ve had it that good, settling for anything less would just be wrong.
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That's right, never settle. You have to have chemistry. Hopefully on Saturday night you did get free dinner (drinks?).
"Basically, it’s an attractive quality that’s hard to describe. And it’s that je ne sais quoi that I’m always looking for when I meet someone. It’s that thing I can’t fully describe but I know it when I see it."
Well said! I enjoy your blog.
What a great outlook you have on your 'lacking' date. I completely agree with you; I'd rather be alone than settle for anything less than all you described. Good for you for believing in yourself enough to know just how much you deserve and not accepting anything less. I'm right there with ya. :)
No settling allowedn! Makes it all the sweeter when it arrives. :)
It's best not to waste everyone's time as well. There are MTV shows to watch!
I wish I had read this just before Psycho-Boy (aka Mr. South Side on MY blog) had asked me "So what exactly DO you want?" If I had been able to tell him what you had so eloquently written, maybe he would've understood that he SOOO was NOT the one for me a lot sooner than he actually did!
Well Kendra, I was looking for all that too but when I eventually found it I was surprised because it was some time after the first date when it had been lacking! It will be there one day for you too :)
I will still be your pimp, even if this one didn't work out! ;) In my defense, it was a set up twice removed...bad idea!
Cheryl - free drinks - yes. free dinner - no. I'm not sure I could have done a meal.
Tommy Boy - thanks for the compliment - glad you enjoy my little corner of the internet!
Marissa - What? We agree on something? Unheard of! :)
La - I think we've seen what happens when I settle...
Beth - Ummm, Laguna!
Dasi - If you'd like for me to send him an email, just let me know. :)
Miladysa - let's hope that "one day" isn't too far off.
Thomas - I'll be at "Elizabethtown" on Sat. night - another Cameron Crowe gem!
Becki - yeah, we won't be making that mistake again...of the twice removed set-up, not you being the P.I.M.P.
That was soooooo well-put. Great job. And I love Cameron Crowe movies as well. I could watch Almost Famous a zillion times and never get bored.
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