I’ve started several different posts about Mr. Normal. They’ve varied from sad and hurt to bitter and angry. I’ll just say this: Yes, it was a rollercoaster ride. Sure, I got emotion sickness from it but I don’t regret the ride.
I tried. I put myself out there. I trusted someone. I hadn’t let someone get that close in almost two years and it was time I did.
It didn’t work out but I’ll be fine. I read a quote somewhere once (might have been one Willie’s quotes from Okie) that said something to the effect of “I was fine before you came along and I’ll be fine when you’re gone.” I’ll probably be blue for a little while before I’m fine, but I will be fine.
I’m too damn tired to go into the details of the Hindenburg-like ending of our relationship. Instead, I’ll just throw out some lyrics and let you all draw your own conclusions. In the meantime, I’m headed back to the dating drawing board.
How to Save a Life
The Fray
Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
4 comments:
Sorry about Mr. Normal. It sounds like he served his purpose which was for you to trust and learn to let people get clsoe. I had this guy I never went out with and it made me sad, but he served a purpose in helping me be less afraid. Like you said, it is something you don't regret and you shouldn't. Now you can take it and give it to someone else, someone better.
I know you'll succeed at that drawing board!
Of course you'll be fine, and kudos to you for letting someone in. :)
Bl**dy men!
Well, on the positive side he was Mr Normal anyway and only Mr Absolutely Fabulous will do for our KC!
(Hugs) x
*Hugs*
You are one fantastic prize!
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